Game Over....

ahhhhh..
To think of it i've been acting rather gay the last few months.

I wanted the green princess so bad.
That i allowed my emotions to take the better of me.


Embed in my head was the thought that i'm going to fail and might never get her.
That was prolly one of the reasons why i acted in such a gay manner.
Thus causing me to fail, cause i was negative and pessimistic.


With my head in a slur , i acted in ways that i shouldnt have.
I was constantly thinking of how much i wanted the G.P
That i was unable to think clear.

Its like doing maths equations when you're high on drugs.(Okay.. maybe not)

With a fuzzy mind, i think in ways that i never will. if emotions were not present.


I thought i had everything to lose , (i probably have lost everything)
So i tried everything i could, without thinking of the consequences.


To think in the way that i'll fail, caused me to fail.


I've been fickle in making decisions,

I've failed.

"God be thanked, the meanest of His creatures,
boasts two soul-sides, one to face the world with,
One to show a woman when he loves her!" - Robert browning.

Well not exactly the best quote,
But this relatively unfamiliar emotion has left me befuddled causing me to act in desperation.


I've portrayed an image that prolly fucked everything up.


Allow me to hit the restart button and try again.