No more no more

Ah , good that i've given up on the green princess.
Reading through what i've typed seemed irrelevant now.

Childish i was. hahaha, funky how i held on so dearly to something that caused me so much damage.

Mentally and physically (No i do no self-mutilate)
But in an attempt to forget i ride reckless-ly.


I'm sure i've changed, and reverted partially to that of the old nian.
I lost my love for her and so did my passion for riding.
or maybe , i rode for her.

i dont know. why did i do that for.
did i think that will actually impress her?

what happened to the genuine satisfaction i derived from learning a new trick?
i dont know, i dont want to know.

Come what may.

i've got a feeling i'm going to love whats coming for me.
I'm sure i'll be better then my dad.
but i cant wait to find out the new passions of my life.


I cant wait to find new stuff that i enjoy doing.



I see her msn, i want to talk but i don't
err broken english.
hahaha.

Yea!

i like the way it is now.
this is not denial, this is hope at its very minimal.
ok no more.
hhahaha chillax!