6/10/08

Man , I didnt sleep for 2 straight days.
And now. i'll still awake 5am.

Wide awake.(well. not exactly..)
just bothered by some stuff.

Ok la, truth is . theres a girl whom i really like.
Yes.

Cant seem to get through to her.
Fucking hell. i'm becoming just like everyone else.
No longer nian. uniquely nian.

Where girl problems = no problems.


Man, i really do like that girl alot.
She is who i like.
damn, unlike sec school crushes. where you only like a person for her outlooks.
This one is totally different.
I love her personality.
I love who is she.
I love how she thinks
and i love what she does.

I love the way she acts speaks and shit.

Oh yea.



haha, everything i though i wanted , is nothing that i really wanted.
This makes my life, sad..

In contrast to that of my secondary school days
The happy facade. The smiling visage. Born i'm with.
I'm stuck with taht. cause taht is what makes nian , nian.


Haha.

Oh well. Being heartbroken is the worst ever fucking feeling.
Theres NOTHING yuo can do about it.

NOTHING i can do.

The origin, is not from me, myself. But from external sources of which you have no control over.
It is unconditional pain.
It comes anytime .

unlike , stress and depression.
Stress comes from the person himself.
You can control your perception of the degree of importance a project is and hence you can change you idea of stress.

Not . Oh man.

I sound gay.

I better quit.
this aint nian


TMR! i shall post on all the things i like to do.
Hopefully to forget this shit.

Friends we shall be, my liking for her shall never cease.
In fear of losing that very special seconds of my life to speak to her.
I wait as a friend.
In the hopes of her accepting and acknowledging my liking for her.

Slowly, Quietly. Passively.


on my bike.
i need my bike.
Please.