She is to me

BTT? Passed.


Whoopdeedoo.
Man, Lots to do.
Exams are coming soon
My official ITP pay is 1.70 an hour.
Traveling to work = 2 ERP
BEEP BEEP 4 dollars. In other words , i work 3 hours to get to work
HAHA

Man, i dont want to work


WARNING : EMO SHIT.

Rather not start a new post.
Just add on to the one i made earlier today


I like her alot alot alot.
And i doubt she knows the extent to which i do.
but so what if she knows?
I dont know what i can do to make her feel the same.


To me shes the world
To her i'm just another friend.

Funny how things work.
Life isn't fair. Yet we all preach about democracy and fairness.
A known fact that we all fail to admit.

Why are we humans so obstinate about the negative?
And yet we all claim to be optimistic.

Befuddling huh .
I know my priorities, i know what i want.
but i don't know what does she want?
how can i work for her?

Maybe , hopefully. In time...
I'll get to her. If 4 years aint long enough, i'll do it for another 10. If 14 aint long enough. i'll do it till i die.

Vying hopelessly for a place in her heart,
I shall perish.
Unknown to the faults that i make.
Hidden from the qualities that i lack.

Time ago, Coco asked me
What if someone you really liked came by, what would you do?
Back then i was happier and very much more unknowing

This someone came by..


I put everything on the line.
but that everything wasn't enough to fill up the line.


Am i too crazy to be liked?
it has to be me.

I have what everyone wants, Toys , Gizmos.
but i have nothing that everyone needs.

I'm not perfect, But i practice. Not to be perfect
but hopefully to be good enough for my green princess.

She likes guys who can sing and play the guitar.
i play my bass, but i cannot sing for nuts.
I guess i'm not born with it.

I'm not exactly good looking
i guess i'm not born with it.

Why do i have to possess qualities that she does not care about?
I may not be the smartest prick on earth.
but i am alot more determined then any of you.

I may not be the best looking
but i'm a shit load more dedicated then one with charming looks


She is too nice.
Perhaps the nicest and the most unique person i even met.
When will i be good enough?

...


Just as i thought.
I am a shell of what i used to be.
What made nian .. nian was well his determination and motivation.
Never unmotivated
never undetermined.

I'll be the asshole who cheers myself up.
The asshole who would ride alone on certain days.
Just to improve and tackle a curb.
The asshole who rides for hours in the vicinity of the GP's home
hoping to catch a glance of her.





My priorities.
I know what i want.
but i don't know what to work for what i want...


I cant say these things out loud to whosoever,
So i 'll have to type them out here . only here in my blog that no one visits