What i am worth for what i hope

hahha, i was thinking about the green princess and the 4 years i spent.
it wasn't a 4 futile and fruitless 4 years.

I did so many things that prolly improved me as a person.

Ah, think back at all those things i did for her. cause i thought she'll like.
MADE ME A KICKASS NIAN!
hahaha. if only she had the capacity for me to like.Nah. not going to happen. never will.


i dont need sympathy.
i'm just reflecting.
Cause i admire my dedication
HAHA JUST KIDDING!

Ahhh.
I learn t cards so that i can impress her.
Practicing 4-5 hours on the first few months every night.
So that i can show her. somehow.



I picked up the bass , cause i heard she liked dudes with musical background.
Remember the scape gig. She was there after flag day. Standing in the front row donning PE shirt .
but i screwed up.
hahaha



Riding bike,ahhh.
I'll road near her place all the times in the hopes that i can see her.
balls. but still i do love riding bike. Its the only thing i did for myself not for her.
Balls. funky.

When there was a chalet coming, i 'll train extra hard so that i can do something and hopefully impress . Oh well.
I never did.
but i gained something. Skills that one without determination can never achieve.


I actually read up on self-improvement books
HEY HEY DONT LAUGH OKAY.
i was trying that hard.
hahhaa but it did help to a certain extent.
I"M SO GOOD. HOW MUCH CAN THEY IMPROVE ME?
HAHAHAHAHAH






I guess she made me who i am today
she made my
"blue eyes blue"- EC

Dedication?
Nah, more like chasing clouds.


Lets keep my fingers cross, that i'll find a girl who will appreciate.
the fact that nian kicks. fucking ass! WORLD CLASS!







BTW


http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-198698/MAID-Movie-Full.html

This show is fucking corny.
but fucking good!
hahaha.

Man , thai language sure is funny.
it goes well with their sarcastic actions.

HAHAHA!
watch it. ROFL